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Poetry
Lilly Perkins
Enlightenment
Floating onward and upward
Collecting items of (no) importance along the way...
Smiling, nodding...shhhhhh...keep a secret...ignore the wind murmuring in my ear
Slowing, dragging...finally stopping, dazed...where am I going?
I catch a glimpse of someone in the mirror. "I'm sorry, have we met?"
Turning into what
I vowed I never would, choking on the excessive necessities
I thought would buy me time, buy me an identity
And now I know
Who I am, Just who am I?
And the more I know the more I see the more I realize
It's all (desperately) wrong.
Coughing up the excessive necessities...
Leaving layer after layer behind, now I'm new
And it hurts and I'm RAW and RED and sore but
feeling more than ever before
It's all becoming clear so fast who I am, who I was
supposed to be and I'm wantinglongingneedingreachingscreamingcryingbegging...PLEASE!
Hear me, reach inside yourself and know I'm alive,
Feel my energy reaching for you and tell me it's all
Going to be all right. Wrap me in your warmth and lend me your strength and let me believe...for a little while...tell me it's going to be okay. I want to
believe
I want to change I need to change I need a chance a fire of
discontent is raging inside...burning and urging me forward--
But. To what? To WHOM? I know you I see you I need you I want you
to know ME. To see ME. To pick me up, please don't let me fall. Nonononononono.........NO.
Smile. Breathe. Relax. Forget. Pretend...........................